Today is my final day of work. That’s an odd feeling at this point. It seems a little unreal at the moment that as 5:00 this evening, I won’t be working for a number of weeks.
I already had a couple of weeks earlier this year where I wasn’t working when I was between jobs, and this lull is going to be even longer. To top it off, since I’ll be recovering for surgery, I’m not entirely sure at this point when I’ll be able to actually get back to “normal” life. At least before I could occupy myself with running errands or trying to meet up with people during the day, but now, I’m not sure what I’m going to be up to doing during that time or if I’ll even been able to drive. I’m hoping I don’t go stir crazy! (So hey, if anyone out there has free time during the work week, come visit!)
As the surgery approaches (only 3 days away), I’m getting a little nervous. I’m not overly worried, but a little anxious. Surgery is a daunting thing to have hanging in front of you no matter what it’s for, but especially when it will lead to a permanently different situation. Plus, there’s just the unknown about the future. I have so many questions swimming through my head every day… How long will I be in the hospital? When will I start feeling better? When will I be able to get back to normal daily tasks? How am I going to occupy my time? Where am I going to work after this is all said and done? What sort of options do I want to consider for my future?
I’m trying to not think about all of it too much. As I’ve been saying this whole time, I’m taking it a day at a time and sitting here worrying about the future isn’t going to get me anywhere. So right now, I’m going to make it through this final day of work. And this weekend I’m going to enjoy spending time with my friends and family in preparation for being out of commission for a little while.
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.”
Matthew 6:34 NIV