I’ve had a rough couple of weeks. Several things have happened that really brought me down and had me frustrated with my life and with myself.
It’s amazing. The week after I finish a month long series on self-esteem, I get a major blow to mine and I just crumple. That’s why I haven’t been around too much recently. I haven’t wanted to really be around anyone. I’ve wanted to crawl into a hole somewhere and feel sorry for myself.
I think I tried to bottle things up too much and not work it out that I finally got to the point where it started to eat me up. Even now, I still don’t want to deal with it all, but I know I have to or else I’m only going to feel worse. I’ve been focusing now on not letting it get to me so much. Just because things haven’t worked out the way I’d planned and I’ve made a few mistakes along the way doesn’t diminish who I am as a person. I need to be a little better at rolling with the punches and not letting the small things get to me.
So I’m trying to re-focus things now. I want to start going after the things that really matter to me. I’m going to work at hard at becoming the best me that I can be and not settling for whatever comes along. It may be a little difficult for a while, which is why I’m so blessed to have such a supportive husband who wants me to be happy. And that’s all I really want… to do the things that make me happy. I’m tired of wasting my time on things that don’t.