I’m feeling a little better today. I have taken the last week to get caught up on some things. I wrapped up my midterm, spent some time with friends, drank a little extra wine… I also got a hair cut this week and I already feel lighter.
I’m realizing what I think my issues my stem from. First of all, straight up, I’m just doing too much. Figuring out what to cut out, though, is the real issue.
Secondly, as some of you commented on my last post, my chemicals may be a little out of whack. I have been focusing more of hydration and taking all of my vitamins. I think it’s helping already. But I do worry about something a little more serious there. The problem, here, is that I am not sure what to do about it. Normally, I would reach out to my GI, at least to get his advice, but I don’t actually have one anymore. My GI moved on to the research field about a year after my surgery and I haven’t had a need to follow-up with one since. So I doubt any other doctor would want to give me advice without seeing my first, even if there’s not much they can do to help.
Finally, I’m noticing a pattern in my writing that I tend to get a little depressed around this time of year. I think it’s a combination of cold weather and hitting a wall after taking on too much responsibility at the beginning of the year. I should try to remember that next year… But it’s usually around the beginning of March that I pull out of it with the help of my birthday and Springtime!
And I guess that’s part of the reason I love March. It’s definitely not Spring quite yet (at least for longer than 48 hours here in NC), but we had a saying when I was a kid: March comes in like a lion and out like a lamb. And that is the truth here in the South. The first week or two is still pretty chilly, but you can look forward to some beautiful weather by the time the month is over. It may be 32-degrees outside right now, but we’re looking forward to 65 by this weekend!
This month, I’m not worried about goals, I’m focusing on enjoying myself and remembering that life is about being, not doing all of the time. Here’s what I’m looking forward to this month:
- Starting up an IBD Meetup and getting to know some other people in the area.
- Learning Italian as I drive to and from work every day.
- My 10 year high school reunion. (How is that happening already??)
- Lots of basketball.
- Joining in a run challenge with friends at work. (And hopefully making it through 12 miles by the end of the month… okay, I’m not so sure I’m actually looking forward to that.)
- Spending too much money at Anthropologie.
- Celebrating another birthday!