I have always looked forward to the first day of school, starting a new job, moving to a new place, beginning a new activity. There’s something to be said about the adventure of the unknown, but that’s not what I really love about those things: it’s the opportunity to start over, to have a fresh slate. When you step into a new place, you can be whoever you want to be.
I’m always looking for ways to reinvent myself. Sometimes that means starting a new project, or revamping the way I dress, or making a change in my appearance. This week, it was chopping off about 6 inches of my hair.
I had totally not planned to make such a big change. I was considering cutting off a good bit, just because it was long and getting heavy, but I was thinking of something similar to what I already had. But I happen to have a hair stylist for a sister-in-law and she’s usually able to convince me to try something new. And this is definitely new. And probably the shortest I’ve ever cut my hair.
Despite everything I’ve said in this post so far, I’m actually not a huge fan of change. I remember freaking out as a kid when my parents decided to update the kitchen and, therefore, paint over the stenciled strawberries on the wall that had been there as long as I could remember (Oh, the ’80s and their stencils). But I am fully aware that change is not only an inevitable, but necessary part of life. I think that is exactly why I enjoy controlled change. Starting something new or switching up something in my life gives me the chance to make of it what I want.
I think I also like the reminder that this world is full of second chances. If you don’t like where you, then find a way to get where you want to be. That may be a simple change, or it may mean years of hard work and sacrifice, but we all have the opportunity to be who we want to be. I think we forget sometimes how fortunate we are. I know I do. I have been frustrated lately in thinking that I haven’t accomplished what I want to have accomplished or gotten to where I want to be. But it has also made me step back and see how blessed I am. I have a wonderful husband, we both have jobs that pay the bills and then some, we have a roof over our heads and food on our table, I’m healthy (!) and I have great family and friends to get through and enjoy this life with.
So who do I want this “new me” to be? I want her to be thankful and content. She’s got it pretty good.