Ready to go

One week from today. Wow, that makes me a little nervous even typing it. But it’s really OK, I’m doing so much better as far as how comfortable I am with the whole idea, that a week even seems a little long.

This weekend, I had the pleasure of meeting with a lady who had this surgery when she was my age. It’s now 20 years later for her and she’s a mom and living her life pretty much without any restrictions.

Having the chance to speak with her really helped put me at peace with everything. I think that was the last piece of the puzzle that I was missing… actually talking to someone who knows what it’s like to go through this. I appreciated that she told it like it was and gave me some worst-case scenarios so I could be prepared, but she encouraged me that she thought I was making the right decision and was confident that I would never regret it.

She told me it’s not easy, but it’s just a bump in the road. She said after the initial recovery and giving myself some time to get acclimated to things, that I would be feeling so much better that it would make it all worth it. I went through my typical symptoms with her and I think for the first time I really tried to imagine how it will be without those things tying me down. I start tearing up even now thinking about it, because I don’t even know what that’ll be like. To not have the constant worry of knowing where the nearest bathroom is or wondering if I’ll be able to make it fast enough makes me ready to do this.

Even when I think about the potential complications she mentioned, they are definitely no worse than what I’m dealing with on a day-to-day basis right now, and even seem much more manageable. As she told me, this is an adjustment, it’s not something that will drastically change how I live my life. Once I’m past that initial recovery period, there really shouldn’t be anything I do now that I won’t be able to do then.

So now I say, bring on May 7th and let’s get the healing process started!

5 thoughts on “Ready to go

  1. Doug McCaffrey


    I am proud of you and encourage you so much to always be this young woman so ahead of herself in maturity. I am grateful too that you had this time with this lady. You are one of the bravest people I know. Without a doubt you are Christ blessed and always have been. We are all so incredibly proud of you and will continue to pray our way through your journey.
    Much, much Love, Uncle Doug

  2. Lara

    Thanks so much for sharing with us. My brother just had a colostomy for different reasons and I am looking for any information I can find. Turns out that many people have had them, but many don’t talk about it. I am grateful for all that you are sharing. I wish for all good things for you.

    1. smlhughes Post author

      Hey Lara, thanks for your message. I know exactly what you mean. I really didn’t necessarily want to write about all of this stuff, but I also realized that people don’t want to talk about it and it needs to be talked about. I hope I can help get some information out there. I wish good things for your brother, too.

  3. Louise

    I had my proctocolectomy five years ago. I told my GI a few days before my surgery that I would never look back and I haven’t. Even a leak on rare occasion, is just a reminder that it is far better than the life I had before! You will be very thankful you have a life again! Praying your surgery goes well and you have a rapid recover!


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