That is how I have felt for the past couple of weeks. I’ve felt tired, worn down… Honestly, I think I’ve felt this way since my surgery more than 2 months ago. I don’t really feel like I’ve ever gotten back on top of things since then.
I’m not quite sure what I’m missing. I guess I realize that my body is still healing itself and that takes energy. My wound is definitely getting better each day, but it is still a slow process. Thankfully, I have figured out a better way to use the silver nitrate sticks so as to not interrupt my sleep any more, so hopefully that will help, too.
I think work is also pulling me down. I never “eased back into it” like I had originally planned. I went back just 3 weeks post-op and hit the ground running with a 50 hour work week as soon as I started back. And it hasn’t gotten any better since then. Right now, I’m on day 9 of working 11 out of 12 days. I’m exhausted.
Running and training has taken the biggest hit. I’m having a hard time finding the time and energy to get back into it. I usually always went to the gym or ran first thing in the morning, but that means waking up sometime between 5:00 and 5:30, and I just haven’t been able to do that recently. My other options are right after I get off from work, when it’s the hottest part of the day in the South, and it just takes too long to do the whole gym thing. Or I can do it after dinner, but that’s the time that I’ve been using to study and to prepare for going back to grad school in just about 2 weeks (Yikes!). So I’m feeling very stuck. And I’m not sure what should be the most important thing to me right now… getting the rest I need or being disciplined with training and exercising.
Right now, I think just surviving this week is the first step. I’ve been so busy with work and other things recently that I don’t feel like I’ve had a chance to catch my breath. I really need some time to get back ahead of things, instead of feeling like I’m constantly a step behind. My house is a wreck; I’ve hardly made a home cooked meal; I still have a lot of reading before starting class. I’m hoping that this coming weekend I will have a chance to regroup and figure this stuff out… And maybe take a morning to sleep in.