May 7, 2012. That’s the date I have scheduled to have my colon removed.
I spent this whole morning out at UNC GI Surgical Clinic going over the procedure, getting any and all of my questions answered, filling out paperwork, and finally… scheduling the surgery.
I’ve been walking around in a bit of a fog since the appointment. I’m so thankful that my wonderful big sister was there with me to hold my hand and make me feel better when I’d start to get a little light-headed. I’m still not sure how I feel about all of it. I know this has to be the right thing, but coming to terms with it is quite a long road.
I’ve realized lately just how long it has been since I’ve really felt “good.” It’s been so long, that I don’t actually remember what that feels like, so it’s hard to know if feeling “good” is worth it. I have to believe that it is.
It’s now less than 2 weeks until the surgery. But honestly, I’m glad it’s sooner rather than later. I’d prefer to not have to be thinking about it for weeks and weeks. I’m hoping that the next 13 days give the peace of mind that I’ve been searching for. I know that God has a plan and that He won’t let me down. And I’m ready to start feeling better.